Friday, June 07, 2013
As I look forward towards graduation, I feel like I am going through the five stages of death. Maybe that’s a little dramatic, but attending and graduating college are a really big deal. I have taken forty-nine classes, completed four internships, and created lasting relationships with peers and professors, and finally, after months of biting my nails, emailing, interviewing, and worrying, secured my very first full-time, adult job. I am just now entering the realm of acceptance, and the journey here is worth talking about.
Until spring quarter of your senior year, you will be in denial. It just won’t register that college is ending. Two hour classes broken up by lunches with friends, having Friday’s perpetually free, and month long winter breaks are all fleeting aspects of a college lifestyle.
I don’t know that it is the worst thing to be in this stage as long as you’re making the most of it. Don’t catch yourself thinking “Oh, I’ll just do that next time,” because pretty soon there won’t be a next time. Go to class - pretty soon you won’t have a class to go to. Go the extra mile in your group projects - pretty soon you might be working with one of your teammates in the real world. Listen to your professors - they’ve been out there in the real world and they know what it’s like. Make the most of the first stage of graduation.
I would equate this stage to the time I told my father, at the mature age of four-and-a-half that I didn’t want to grow up and wanted to be a kid forever. I stamped my foot. I cried. I yelled.
I would like to think I had a more civil reaction to this stage this time around, but I still felt those same emotions rising up. It isn’t fair that I only get four years of this glorious world called college. It isn’t fair that I’m going to have to start paying my own bills next month. But it’s just life. Everyone else is doing it.
I actually considered adding a minor so that I could stay an extra quarter, but that’s about as close to bargaining as I got. I got pretty desperate trying to think of a way to perpetuate college, but it has to end. That’s why it’s such as special experience.
This stage has been the hardest for me. The goodbyes, the farewell dinners, and the realization that everyone is leaving and my whole life is about to change, drastically, has been too much at times.
Seattle University has an incredible community, and I felt like graduation would have me walk through a door that would shut behind me leaving that community behind. I felt an increasing amount of regret questioning whether or not I truly made the most of my time at Seattle University.
Don’t put yourself in this position. Call that friend you haven’t seen in a month. Go to the recommended lecture your professor talked about in class. Sit next to someone new in class and get to know them. You never know when opportunity might strike or suddenly disappear.
And here I am. I am so excited for the next stage of my life. It’s exhilarating, terrifying, and bittersweet all at once. I know that I have the Seattle University and Albers support system to fall back on and that the relationships I made will last me a lifetime. I may not be a student anymore, but I am proud and excited to become an Alumni and join a new community in Seattle University.
Congratulations, Class of 2013. We did it.
Leanna H. Robb
Core Honors - Seattle University
Marketing Major (Senior) - Albers School of Business and Economics
Digital Design Major - College of Arts and Sciences
New Student Mentor - Albers School of Business and Economics
Graphic Designer - Seattle University Student Activities